Wow, it has been a while since I have did my last blog. It seems like so much has changed from that time. Spring Break is over. I remember the days when I was counting down the days till Spring Break now I am waiting for Spring semester to end. I had much fun during my break. It was a great stress reliever. Unfortunately, towards the end of the break many things happened that did not go in to my favor. I had a court hearing, it does not seem to have gone in my way.
During the hearing, I discovered a new belief in God. My mom always have praised God, she tells "him or she" everything. When I was younger, I use to follow my mommy because I idolized her so I prayed to God. Lately, over the past five or more years my prayers have been less frequent. But when the hearing came up, it seems that I was tormented between praying for assistance and being a hypocrite. I was only praying to please myself, when I was in need of a miracle. I sought relief by in believing in something that is uncertain. God. Why? Was I BullShiting myself? I do wonder that. But, I try to remain positive that a God does exist just to coup with worries in my mind.
<sign> how long can I bullshit myself?
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